The Dinner Party

I feel like i'll sleep better tonight knowing he was here
Because for once i felt so whole, having him so near
But there is something inside of me just gnawing at my heart
Because that boy was never mine- not even from the start

I hope she knows how lucky she is- the gorgeous girl he talks so much about
Because she has the beautiful boy who was just lying in my bed
And she has access to the kindest words ever said
The words that take a permanent residence in my head

I love his family more than anything,and the way he fits into mine
I love the way he shakes my father's hand and the way he always hugs me goodbye
He does all of these things like they're the simplest things in the world
God i would give anything to be that gorgeous girl